CRUMBLED CARDS2

….I tried to feel the hands but couldn’t recognize the person. Finally, I begged to be released as my eyes were beginning to hurt. It was Bobi; amidst the hailing from his friends and everyone, he held my waist which was actually a first as he never did that in public while Shade kept looking at me like: “What are you going to do?”
In Bobi’s presence, I was overwhelmed especially as he was treating me like a treasure he didn’t want to lose sight of or let go so I basked in this if only for a while. Of course we ended up in his room and had sex but still I couldn’t work up the nerve to confront him. As far as I was concerned, the trouble wasn’t with him but with that back stabbing bitch who couldn’t keep her legs closed; and well, Bobi was showing a little consideration for me these days.
My new friend Shade wanted to cut off my throat and called me all sorts of names but I wasn’t perturbed. In all of this, Beauty had still not returned and basically the whole school was waiting for her as it promised them a showdown between the two of us. If Bobi heard anything or got wind of the impending doom he showed no knowledge of it and things continued as before with a relationship that was nothing to write home about.
Some weeks into school resumption, after a particular day of marathon lectures, I went jogging just to ease off on the stress and get away to be my sole company. When I got back to my room, I was told that Beauty came to see me. My skipped!
Much as I wanted to confront her, I wasn’t quite ready for it as I hate any confrontation of any type. I was someone who hated talk but expressed myself through my actions and all wanted was never to see her again and truth be told, somehow, I missed her despite what I had heard and what had gone down hence, why I kept dodging her.
We had a loose click then; I started hearing that the other members of the click were moving with her when I hadn’t even confronted her. I went to enquire if it was true from the person that was in the forefront and who was actually the first to condemn Beauty and even fuelled the whole thing and she said:
“Please what’s my own with what’s going on between you two? If you want to confront her, then do so and leave me out of it”
Sosexy- “Oh? So that’s it now? You just said all that for what and to what end? You finally created a rift between us and you’re extricating yourself like you have no inkling of what I’m saying. Anyway, it’s done”
I was fast learning the way the world operated and what better way but to blend in it?
I never confronted Beauty but steered of her. Those who wanted to hear more came asking why we were not seen together, I said nothing and I’m sure she gave no explanations.
By then, Bobi and I were fast becoming history with series of humiliations directed at me. Finally, he brought the brewing issue of Beauty up and I said I didn’t want to talk about it then he had the gall to tell me he never did it. Swore even. He said Beauty was the truest friend I would ever have and to that I laughed long and hard all the while looking at him with derision and finally telling him to ‘drop it’; just those words.
All those who affirmed the affair between Bobi and Beauty now denied ever saying that and instead, made me out to be the suspicious one who was ungrateful of the friendship bestowed on me by Beauty. Everyone, that is except Shade who kept reminding me that we had gotten proof and that I should leave Bobi. She called spineless and silly but I guess I needed a sign from heaven telling me succinctly that I should take myself out of that relationship and get going.
Finally my birthday and I threw a party where even Beauty was in attendance. She came to proffer her explanation eyeball to eyeball for the first time. She said she did nothing with Bobi and that it was Bobi carrying the rumour about them both so that I could split. She said we shouldn’t be friends over a guy that wasn’t even worth it and wondered what I was still doing with him, that she had even stopped speaking with him and that I was better off without him.
I waited for my BF to show up for my party but he didn’t. I wanted to sink into the ground as it was so in obvious he wasn’t in attendance. My friends rallied around me and tried their best to make me happy and not let anything mar my day but what do you think? I’m guessing that was my sign from heaven but I chose not to give heed to that.
Two days later, he showed up that he had been busy in the studio and had designs to turn in so he couldn’t afford to show up; brought a ‘card’ along with him for me. He also said I should pack up some things that we were going to his apartment to celebrate my birthday.
He said he couldn’t wait to ‘be’ with me, ‘feel’ me and all that within those lines and when he was done, do you know what happened next? He sat me down and said:
“We’ve been dating for a year and half now and I have to come clean with you, I’m tired of being caged, I’ve had to stick to rules and all because I’m in a relationship and baby, that’s just not me. I have to tell you, you’re slowing me down. Lets just be really good friends. You’re a nice girl and I’m sure there are guys out there gunning for you and don’t think I haven’t heard! It’s over’
I was numbed with pain. My world had just fallen apart and just like that. I cried like a baby and uncontrollably at that. His friend came to ask what’s up and when he didn’t get any reply, the friend gathered me close and held me, he whispered to me that I was better single than dating his friend. It was hell.
That night, I opted to sleep on the rug as I didn’t need Bobi around me. Dawn couldn’t come soon enough; I left as early as 6am with all of my stuff.

EPILOGUE
When I gotten to my room, it was obvious to my friends that it was over and they all kept celebrating. Subsequently, Bobi came to beg but I didn’t even see him. Maybe it was out of fear that my friends would maim me. I tried to get over him and he tried getting in my ways in so many ways. He even went as far as having an affair with chic whom we both lived on the same block and would make a hell of a noise whenever he was in her apartment which he knew I’d hear and would hurt.
I did hurt and instead of bringing me back to him, it pushed me away and I genuinely began to dislike him a whole lot.
The Bobi phase left me and I had more of them friends and yeah I had loads of male admirers and I had now become popular for reasons unknown to me. Once in while, Bobi would pop up, he always was, I was finally someone he wanted to be with (funny). Especially when he asked me to marry him! Ha! Funny. With a criteria that I’d always be slim! Mscheeew!
Here’s me being single until I met Patrick.